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I am delighted to feature some new bloggers on my site this month. I found Heather’s site, Raining Silence, a few months ago and immediately fell in love with her poetry. Her words overflow from a heart that wrestles with the competing loves of God, self, and everything around. I’m pleased to introduce her to you today. Check out her site, read a few posts, and fall in love too.


When Joy asked me to write as a guest on her blog, initially I was thrilled, honored, and giddy.  That was before the nerves began creeping in.

What should I say?  How many words are acceptable?  What if I write too little, or too much?

What if others don’t like my words?

As usual, I found myself becoming my own worst enemy, as I have time and time again.  My mind had begun to lie to me, to coerce me into believing that I can’t do it.  I’m not good enough.  I often find myself entangled here, in this game.

Why is this the case?  Especially when I have such a loving and graceful Father!

Why can’t I be more like Him?

It finally dawned on me: I will write about that area that I struggle with the most.  The area that often imprisons me, keeping me from experiencing so many opportunities.  It’s a battle–a battle of the mind.

“Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship.  Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.  Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.” Romans 12:1-2

I need to be transformed.  I need to renew my mind.  But what does this mean?

What does this look like for us, messy disciples?

It means that I need to hush the lies.  I need to stop thinking negative thoughts and begin thinking on His thoughts.  I need to remember to think on those things that are true, noble, right, pure, lovely, admirable, and praiseworthy as Philippians 4:8 says.

I need to be feasting on His love letter so that I can remember that in Deuteronomy–He calls me His treasure, in Psalms–I am the apple of his eye.  I am fearfully and wonderfully made.

I will choose to break the chains.  I will daily renew my mind and continue to bravely scribble the imperfect words that He allows to come to me.

Is your mind keeping you from something?  Perhaps it’s time for renewal.

By Heather Mattern, www.rainingsilence.com